Ok where to begin... who cares just start. My semester is drawing to a close but the Rollercoaster I'm on seems to have only started. I'm sitting here anticipating the big dip, followed by a few loops some secondary dips and lots of fast paced wind blowing travel. Then I think I don't want to come to the end of it all and I'll try my utmost to do so. Though truly enough all good things come to and end. STOP! Ahh well if I stop I will simply say thank you and have some memories but more so, the best I can do is put it out of mind and continue along with clear head space and no expectations of the next ride I will encounter. I'm so mixed in my thoughts currently that I can't even pick the words of what I want to say but strangely enough I can't consol this with my emotions. Let me be clear here. I’m falling back to old ways of concerning my self about my marks status and that I have to do well, though I'm not travelling along anymore but rather I’m experiencing, such joy it brings me. I look back and see that my ride ended a while ago though I have failed to realise it and it’s up to me to walk along to the next one. So what am I waiting for, I have all the time in world contrary to what I keep telling my self. I fear that I will never get it, but I'm starting to apply my past experiences which is cool though my downfall is lack of discipline to commit wholly, WHY? Solution, take a blind leap and half way through open my eyes and look around. This would help to eliminate wrong doings such as assumptions, expectations and pre-assessment it should allow me to experience. I have to many clocks and gauges to measure my out comes why can I not look to be more concerned about my influences should this not help me to subconsciously achieve an outcome. REALISATION the outcome is only a reflection of me and my journey. Me is only a make up of what I search for, try, experience, inhale, absorb at least I think!! Maybe, I shouldn't think...... detach from outcomes they will occur naturally. Invest in my journey this is the fun part. Out come= end= get over it. Input=start=fun=learning= experience=stimulation=..........

ENOUGH